Two entries in one day?! What?!

I noticed that after I posted the previous entry I'd have an odd number of blogs for the month and ... yeah.

I tried for it not to bother me. I took a shower, brushed my teeth, changed. I couldn't get it out of my head. So I figured if I just waited until tomorrow then there would be nothing I could do about it! It would be done and out of my control. That did more damage than good.

So here I am, writing this extra entry! Ending the month with an even number of blogs.

See everyone in 2009!

Happy (soon to be) New Year!

Well, here we are at the very end of 2008!

I feel rushed to post this entry! I'm sitting in my room, surrounded by packed boxes, getting ready to go out tonight. I have an hour and a half before my ride arrives but for some reason I feel like I'm running short on time. Ironic I guess since this is our last hours in the year.

I don't have anything to add, just wanted to say that I hope everyone has an awesome time tonight. Stay safe and I'm just going to say it - don't drink and drive!

The F Word (Fail)

Ever have an academic-related nightmare? It can mess you up.

I woke up the other day in a panic, mixing up my dream with actual reality. I had dreamt I was at the university and had found out that all my changes I had made to my schedule in early September never went through! I was enrolled in classes which I never attended and the papers and assignments I had written were for classes I was never properly enrolled in. I went to the Registrar's Office to explain, but of course (being a nightmare) there was no sympathy. The window had closed of when I could drop classes so I was stuck with the zeroes and all my assignments that had been completed didn't account for anything.

Now, what's worse than having a nightmare is having one that lingers when you wake up. The anxiety is still there and even though I knew it was a dream, I still had to check webadvisor just to make sure everything was in order.

Anyone else have these kind of nightmares lately?

I'm terrified of finding out I'm enrolled in a class that I can't get out of because the window of opportunity to drop out has closed! I' m sure I'm doing well in my classes, but being enrolled in all 6 credit courses I have yet to learn my marks to ease my paranoia.

The nightmare got me thinking. Assuming I'm doing worse than I actually am (always looking at the glass half-empty) what's the worst that could happen? Try to ease the pain of failing by telling myself there are worse things and that the situation isn't as bad as I think. Well, I fail I take the course over again. Not so bad. A waste of time, but not the end of the world! I mean, on a scale of one to ten, if failing a class is nine on the list, I'd have to wonder if you're priorities are in order and where on a scale an unfortunate death or illness would rank.

Nothing is as bad as it seems after the initial shock. Here's hoping it stays a nightmare and not a warning of things to come!

I like changing the glass from half-empty to, ... well, not half-full, more just in the middle.

Counting the days away

I'll regret the days missed later ...

The countdown is at 4 days until the big move and besides the fact that my mother has me almost convinced that once I move out my new house will go up in flames and I'll possibly die, I'm really excited! I think this huge change will allow me to see a lot of things in a new form. Everything will change, some slightly, others a lot. I'm sure that my perspective on a lot of things I've shrugged or taken lightly will play more importance, while things that seem to control my attention will finally be able to not seem like such a huge deal. Or I could be wrong. I guess I'll find out soon enough!

Besides moving out I have two other major countdowns at the moment. One being to a trip the U.S. for a conference with other members of a student organization I'm with in February, and the second, is to Reading Week when I'll throw myself in the horrible situation of acting infront of a large amount of people! I figure I think I'd like acting, even though I don't like any kind of attention focused on me ... so I auditioned for Students On Stage last October. Sensible enough, right?

I'm off to bed! Early shifts are killing my night plans. The upside to the end of the winter break is that I don't have to work! Hope everyone is well!

A Wish Worth A Risk?

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Or if you prefer, Happy Holidays! I hope everyone is enjoying this time of the year either way! ... as opposed to all other periods of the year when I don't particularly care. Haha, kidding!

I was spending the day with family, as I usually do at Christmas, and tonight we had our turkey dinner when I noticed the wishbone was set to the side. As a child I held in the superstitious belief that came with the wishbone. One person takes one end, another person takes the other, they make a silent wish and pull. When the wishbone snaps, the person with the biggest part at the tip wins their wish! And I started thinking, when I was a kid I thought of it in a different light than I do now. When I was little I believed that I was risking a wish. If I made a wish while committing to the procedure, that wish was at risk. Only one person wins when snapping a wishbone, so obviously one person loses!

If I lost, I believed that because I put the wish that I made out there in the void (where it would wait to be answered by some magic) that if I lost, that wish would be lost and would therefore not come true. In my mind, it was hit or miss. Was the wish worth the risk of having it not answered? This wasn't some birthday cake wish, here you were in a competition and only one wish was going to be answered. Was the wish I was risking worth not coming true? Or should I hold off? 50/50 chance.

Just something I thought about this Christmas, the inner superstitious thoughts of my mind as a child.

Time For A Change

I'm still not used to being on winter break.

It's 2:13am (currently) though I'm sure when I post this entry the post time will be set back a few hours (anyone know why?) and I work in less than two hours. Technically I have appx 45 minutes to sleep before my alarm goes off, thirty minutes after that to get ready and another thirty to walk to work.

I'm not a fan working and going to school, but having depleted all my money, I have no other option until the next OSAP installment. Why not live without money for a few weeks? I've already purchased all the Christmas gifts I have to buy! Simple. Are you ready for this?

I'm moving out of my parent's house!

I know, right?! It's about damn time. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, but when the offer from two of my friends who were in need of a roommate for the New Year came along, I had to take it! I've been out on my own before, I lived overseas for awhile, but this is different. I knew the time overseas was only a temporary event until I was to return for university, in which case I'd be back with the parentals. Why wouldn't I? Free rent! Free groceries! But it's time for another big event. This should do for now.

Hope everyone is enjoying their holidays!

0/544 - George Eliot 'The Mill on the Floss'
(Starting it this week!)

Winter!

(pictures removed)

Winter is here full force and I can finally enjoy it! I don't normally go out in minus-celsius weather in a t-shirt and shorts, but when joining minds with another bored friend, we thought it would be funny to take pics of it. A quick description, the second pic is of me jumping backwards into the snowbank just infront of the sign of lower Res, only to trip over a shrub hidden in the snow causing me to fall back (third pic) I'll admit, at that moment I questioned my intelligence.



0/544 - George Eliot 'The Mill on the Floss'
(I'm not going to insult you with a lie ...)

Time For A Holiday!

Guess what!

I'm done my mid-terms! I've officially started my winter break! My plans?! Working for cash 'cause I'm starving and reading the novels assigned for next term in my English classes. Let's see if I actually stick to it and get them finished so I don't have to stress it last minute! I have four novels I have to read, I'll leave a count at the bottom of each blog so you can silently judge my progress. I figure if I do that (I won't lie in it either, I'm not impressed by people who lie and just cheat themselves, besides, what do I get out of it?) ... I forget where I was going with this. Oh! By leaving a count at the bottom I'll feel guilty if I don't actually make any progress. I feel like whatever I write in my blogs about goals I have an obligation to keep up with them, whereas if I just say it to myself I probably won't.

I swear guys I've actually written more in this blog than what's actually posted! I have a bad habit of writing stuff and just saving it as a draft with every intention on continuing it, yet don't, if only for the fact that I have thought of something else to post or don't feel like adding on to it.

That being said, I can't think of anything else to say.

(insert 5 minutes of blank thought here)

You can tell I was actually thinking because I didn't want to waste that five minutes with nothing to show for it in writing!

I think I'm just going to leave it at this. I'll be posting more since most of my time will consist only of working and reading. Well, that and hanging out with friends, partying, watching movies, blowing spit bubbles ... but I will update!

Later!

0/544 - George Eliot 'The Mill on the Floss'